Belonging

All i can think about is being with her, lying in bed facing her and smiling at her. Watching her pout in her sleep. Kissing the swallows behind her ears and the stars on either side of her stomach. Rubbing her back and her legs and gently blowing in her ear. Holding her hand and laughing at ridiculous things. I just really hate being away from her.

I feel guilty for wanting to leave home, but i miss her so much. Her beautiful smile and contagious laugh. And just being able to be with her without having to hide our relationship. To be able to walk down the street holding her hand, and eat out and hold hands across the table, kiss her as we walk down the street. Talk about her openly as the beautiful woman i love, not my 'friend'.

I go back on Wednesday, and then i come back home in less than 2 months, and we wont see each other for more than a month. I'm dreading it already.