Most of my friends still don't know about J. My best friend T (who i mentioned a few posts back) doesn't know and she's one of the people i'm scared to tell the most. I don;t know why it is, but i am. She's like my baby sister but at the same time we've ended up snogging on drunken nights out. I think i'm worried she'll think i fancied her and think that i snogged her because of that.
Anyway, T and i (and two of her friends) are going to Benicassim music festival in Spain this summer, which i am insanely excited about :D.
There are 11 weeks and 1 day until Festival Internacional de Benicassim 2009
J and her best friend are also going and we plan to meet up while we're both there. Now i go home on 11th June, Beni's between 13th and 23rd July, so this would basically be the first time we'd have seen each other in more than a month. I mentioned to her best mate that when i went to see them i would go alone, and i think J got offended. I tried to explain that if my friends don't know about us yet, i'd rather find her on my own. Can you imagine how weird it would be to meet your girlfriend for the first time in more than month and have to act like you're not together? Thinking about it now makes me want to cry, i can't imagine what it's going to be like. I hope to have told T by the time we go to Beni, but if i haven't i'd rather meet J alone and be able to at least give her a hug and a kiss. She hasn't replied to my last text. She's been really understanding about the fact that i've hardly told anyone back home yet so this has come as a bit of a surprise to me. I also asked her what she'd do when she comes home to visit me in August. I haven't told my parents yet and she's asked me not to tell them till after they meet her. Fair enough, i understand why and i think it's a good idea cos i think they'll love her and i don;t want them to judge her. But isn't this the same thing? Will she get offended if don't hold her hand in front of my parents like i wouldn't in front of my friends?
Hmmm i don't know. Any wise opinions? At least wiser than mine!
Wednesday, 29 April 2009
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Oh man, I told myself to repsond, and I haven't yet, and no one else has either...
This is a tough one. I'm always for coming out despite the short term consequences in order for the long term greatness to being, which for some takes a bit of healing time and if they can't work through it then they don't deserve to be your friend.
But like you said there are some snogging issues that complicate it a bit more. I was lucky, when I came out to a girl who was straight but my cuddle buddy she was very understanding.
I think it would be best to come out and for her to meet J, and when T meets her and sees how happy you are then things should be shiny right? Lets hope. Good Luck!
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